Day 10

Day from hell so far it feels like. My frustration with the kids has turned into an emotional melt down for me. Its getting worse....WHY IS IT GETTING WORSE. They ate vegetables FINE before I started this ....what the crap is that all about? They got more and more picky. Now today Livy refused her oatmeal all morning...then at lunch.I put her back in her highchair and told her she didnt get a sandwich until she ate it. She takes one tiny bite and will sit there. I have to sit and spoon feed every bite to her or she wont eat it. I made them a sandwich which I shouldn't be doing everyday but its my home made whole wheat bread and sunflower butter and usually a fruit inside but today I used honey. I need them to freaking eat vegetables again. Why did they stop suddenly what the HECK I can't stop bawling. I can't take this frustration over them refusing food. And now I have to work with jordan tomorrow and so I have to just hope those who take care of them will refuse them any processed foods or candy and make me have to relive these 10 days only WORSE because they will hold out longer next time! I can't do this anymore. I got out some baby carrots...they LOVE CARROTS AND HAVE EATEN THEM ALMOST EVERYDAY OF THEIR LIFE....yes they were from a can. So I steamed the baby carrots to make them soft....they threw them on the ground. I got out some cashew cream sauce for them to dip them in...the dipped them and sucked it off then threw them on the ground. I feel like im headed for a breakdown. I feel like my only two choices are to not allow them ANY food except vegetables until they start eating them. I swear they will just whither away they are already skinny little kids. Or I can allow them to continue like this.....letting them have whatever alternative they want as long as it is a whole food or grain. Livy will eat tons of fruit and tons of bread and almond milk and never touch anything else. I need to re read his book I feel like im going to snap. This is a good time to go in the garage and do insanity while the kids nap. Im slightly insane myself maybe it will be a better work out. I cant even start thinking about it or I start bawling again. I just dont know what to do